Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Decisions

Decisions..We make them everyday. Some small, some rather difficult on a much larger scale! Decisions are really a crossroads. I wrote about crossroads in an earlier blog, as it's very significant to me. I feel I've stumbled upon another one. Right or left, forward or back. I don't understand why we make wrong decisions, our head knows the right way, but our ignorant heart tries forcing another way on us. I happen to love my heart, it's one of my best qualities, so I tend to listen to it more than my hard head! I fear my heart has taken control of my good sense! You want something, be it a person, an object, a career, your heart is all on board...game for anything! The hard head is pointing out all of the reasons to shy away from it. I found out years ago that I have this ability to shut down the heart...To stop the emotions...It's probably not good for me but it works. At this crossroad there are 4 changes that need to be made...The direction of my goals, (Got that one) My past (Made amends) Something that I want but cant have (I can shut that off) and last but not least (Someone that wants me that I will have to hurt). Gotta love these crossroads. I am going to hold on to this feeling for a few minutes longer, so I can remember them always, then I am cutting it loose. I will emerge tomorrow a different person, The same....yet not.

19 comments:

  1. Interesting Lady D.

    Better and stronger and wiser.

    we make mistakes only when we look back at things. we (usually) make the 'right' one in the moment. i have a hard time saying wrong decisions...everything I've done has made me...me.

    turning off emotions...I do that way too often.

    Good luck and big hugs.

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  2. Interesting Lady D.

    Better and stronger and wiser.

    we make mistakes only when we look back at things. we (usually) make the 'right' one in the moment. i have a hard time saying wrong decisions...everything I've done has made me...me.

    turning off emotions...I do that way too often.

    Good luck and big hugs.

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  3. Change is never a bad thing, if done intelligently and thoughtfully. I wish you luck in your journey and am confident that you will make the right changes for you.

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    1. Thanks Brian...Maybe not whats right for me, but what works for all involved :)

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  4. Oh wow! This is major. My heart goes out to YOU, Ditter. So difficult sometimes to make the right decisions, do the "right thing", turn loose of fear, and also take care of your child.

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  5. It's always difficult, but sitting in neutral will make you wither. Adversity makes us stronger. Admitting our mistakes and learning from them, does too...and who knows, that silver lining me show up right away. Best!

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  6. Whoa, my friend, this one is a touchy one for me as well. Something that I want but can't have......that one hurts. My heart wants it so much that I can taste it, burns like fire within my soul, consumes my thoughts and my emotions, and makes me make rash statements although innocent they may be, that hurt a very dear friend of mine to the point of fear of losing said friend. The heart wants what the heart wants...boy, I have said this too many times. Fire is a beautiful thing....it gives warmth, helps to create new rich soil so that new life can be grown.....but it's beauty can and often is deadly. So the thing that burns deep within our soul must be approached with great caution....is this "want" good for us, does it lead us to greater and better goals or does it just satisfy what the heart wants? I wish I had your gift of shutting this one down; however, I think you are on the right track. You must not let Crossroads get in the way of your goals. Set your eyes, then spread your wings, and fly. Soar to the heights that you know will satisfy your soul. And once again, look down on me and give me that smile that will melt my heart. I love you Ditterbear.

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  7. Whoa, my friend, this one is a touchy one for me as well. Something that I want but can't have......that one hurts. My heart wants it so much that I can taste it, burns like fire within my soul, consumes my thoughts and my emotions, and makes me make rash statements although innocent they may be, that hurt a very dear friend of mine to the point of fear of losing said friend. The heart wants what the heart wants...boy, I have said this too many times. Fire is a beautiful thing....it gives warmth, helps to create new rich soil so that new life can be grown.....but it's beauty can and often is deadly. So the thing that burns deep within our soul must be approached with great caution....is this "want" good for us, does it lead us to greater and better goals or does it just satisfy what the heart wants? I wish I had your gift of shutting this one down; however, I think you are on the right track. You must not let Crossroads get in the way of your goals. Set your eyes, then spread your wings, and fly. Soar to the heights that you know will satisfy your soul. And once again, look down on me and give me that smile that will melt my heart. I love you Ditterbear.

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  8. Whoa, my friend, this one is a touchy one for me as well. Something that I want but can't have......that one hurts. My heart wants it so much that I can taste it, burns like fire within my soul, consumes my thoughts and my emotions, and makes me make rash statements although innocent they may be, that hurt a very dear friend of mine to the point of fear of losing said friend. The heart wants what the heart wants...boy, I have said this too many times. Fire is a beautiful thing....it gives warmth, helps to create new rich soil so that new life can be grown.....but it's beauty can and often is deadly. So the thing that burns deep within our soul must be approached with great caution....is this "want" good for us, does it lead us to greater and better goals or does it just satisfy what the heart wants? I wish I had your gift of shutting this one down; however, I think you are on the right track. You must not let Crossroads get in the way of your goals. Set your eyes, then spread your wings, and fly. Soar to the heights that you know will satisfy your soul. And once again, look down on me and give me that smile that will melt my heart. I love you Ditterbear.

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    1. Pammie Bear...as always such wisdom!! I love you too and I hope you work out the things that are hurting you...

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  9. D, you are one of the most amazing people I know. Decisions are hard but they are part of life. You have done well so far since you are here and have changed so many lives. As for shutting down the heart. Never do, or try not to. You need to let the emotions out and let them float out into the world, like you are shedding skin...Let them fall and it will give you a fresh free load in your heart.

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    1. Savannah..It's not that easy, but I have found out something today that has me afraid, and I have to make a decision soon that could hurt someone, no matter what I decide to do. I really dont know...I love reading the advice though...It's always helpful <3

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  10. I like to think that without crossroads throughout our lives, we would be left with a misunderstanding of the knowledge w have today. We have learned many lessons throughout the stages of life. Yet, some lessons seem to repeat themselves. I believe this comes from our safety net known as what's familiar. We tend to shy away from the unknown. Most of us need change, yet why do we choose what is familiar? Choosing a path that we have not encountered is a very tough choice. Yet, we know what we need to do, most choose not to. I for one do not adapt well to a path that is unfamiliar. Yet, many of my decisions (some good, some bad) have made me who I am today. You are a very strong woman Ditter. You have endured many trials, errors and triumphs. I have a lot of faith in you as a very determined woman. Our choices are what makes us who we are. I love you for who you are and who you will become as life challenges you.

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    1. Thank you Denise...that was beautiful...I love you too...never doubt that!

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  11. Wonderful friends for a wonderful woman. I don't know any of us that haven't been down this road at one time or another. Imagine I'm there with you. I'm taking your hand. "Come on. Let's go together."

    I haven't known you long, but it feels like we've been sisters for life. Like kindred spirits. Maybe my momma had a twin and we got separated! Shit happens!

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    1. Thank you Azure..I feel the same about you. You have been wonderful to me and I only wish I could hug you tight right now!

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