Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Decisions..We make them everyday. Some small, some rather difficult on a much larger scale! Decisions are really a crossroads. I wrote about crossroads in an earlier blog, as it's very significant to me. I feel I've stumbled upon another one. Right or left, forward or back. I don't understand why we make wrong decisions, our head knows the right way, but our ignorant heart tries forcing another way on us. I happen to love my heart, it's one of my best qualities, so I tend to listen to it more than my hard head! I fear my heart has taken control of my good sense! You want something, be it a person, an object, a career, your heart is all on board...game for anything! The hard head is pointing out all of the reasons to shy away from it. I found out years ago that I have this ability to shut down the heart...To stop the emotions...It's probably not good for me but it works. At this crossroad there are 4 changes that need to be made...The direction of my goals, (Got that one) My past (Made amends) Something that I want but cant have (I can shut that off) and last but not least (Someone that wants me that I will have to hurt). Gotta love these crossroads. I am going to hold on to this feeling for a few minutes longer, so I can remember them always, then I am cutting it loose. I will emerge tomorrow a different person, The same....yet not.